Reflecting back on these past couple of days really makes me realize how much I'm going to miss it here. I'm going to miss everything from the kids joyful, Always smiling faces, to the horrific smells of the market. Every moment has become a new experience, all of which i am grateful for.
The kids seem to get more and more incredible with every day. Today, while i was at the orphanage, I realize how much work we had done and how much we had helped them. All that's left is our goodbyes for tomorrow. It seems like just yesterday i came out of the tuk tuk and into the sea of kids for the first time. Tomorrow morning will be the last time of the trip to have that feeling.
Today, while i was playing with Sreyneath, she was called over by the director and handed a cell phone. Almost immediately her face lit up. The person on the other line was her mother. Sreyneath's mother is to sick to take care of her and lives in the slums of Phnom Penh. Although her mother cannot take care of her she still calls often to check to see how she is doing. Sreyneath's father is a solider and that is all she knows about him. I can tell that she misses them both terribly.
Later in the day, i was trying to explain to some of the kids what was happening tomorrow because it is our last day. This conversation quickly turned into sadness. Trying to cover up my own sadness told them that we should be happy and play today and tomorrow we can cry together. After saying this a girl named Sreypi burst out in tears. I hugged her tight and told her to save her tears for tomorrow. There is not a force in the world that will keep me from coming back to Cambodia. I must see them all again.
After each day i come back to Tat Too and all i do is think about how much i miss the kids at CPO. I wonder how i will cope with leaving them for months upon months. But i will come back within a year. There is not a doubt in my mind that i wont. I love them so much. They are all i can ever think about.
I must get some sleep because i have one of the hardest days ahead of me. I love and miss you all!!! Thanks you for following me on this amazing journey!! <3
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